Killfly Blogs

• In an old house with my mother and father
• I’m playing around with new painting software on the computer
• I realize the software can paint whatever I’m thinking
• As I touch the stylus pen to the screen, the part of the image that I’m thinking appears
• I create a house, windows, a shingled roof, tress outside, a red sunset behind it.
• I use another tool in the software menu and the image morphs into something completely different.  I use undo and the original image appears. I realize I can navigate between images using the undo and redo menus items.
• The computer monitor gets bigger and bigger, and soon completely envelops me and everyone in the room.
• My mother and father are with me inside this image that I’ve created. It’s a completely new reality.
• We decide to let the images do whatever they want, to see where they go.
• Every few seconds a new scene appears, and it gets more and more real.  I realize there are other elements you can control by touching things in certain scenes.  It’s like a video game.  Touching a rock in one scene activates the “Undo” feature and brings back the scene before it. We realize that with enough time would could learn how to navigate back and forth between scenes / realities.
• At one point we are sitting in a cafe, outside is a city street like in one of those cyberpunk rainy city images:
•  We walk outside and there is a wall of tv screens each playing a different possible scene.
• My dad points at one and a white neon line appears around it, the others dim.
• The scene envelops us and becomes the new reality.
• We watch as a young boy is playing video games in his bedroom.
• His mother calls from somewhere else in the house, “You you like your new video game?”
• “No, it’s scary.” the boy replies.
• Behind the boy is the tv the game was being played on.  A grim reaper in ragged black clothes appears on the screen, comes half way out of the TV, grabs the boy and drags him backwards into the TV.

  

•  The two disappear.  We hear the boy crying for help and wailing that “This isn’t fair.” The last thing we see is the reaper flying from left to right across the screen, carrying the boy underneath him.
• We dive into the tv screen to go save the boy.

• Running down a road to go do laps a the park I normally run at in the mornings
• Foggy out and I think how it would make a good photograph the way the fog is flowing through the trees
• I keep running down the trail and start to get worried that nothing looks familiar
• I was carrying something and wanted to put it down on the benches that were normally about half way into this park, but the benches were gone.
• I run past a boat launch that is dilapidated, and then another angled roadway covered in brown slippery mud.  I slide down it as I try to run across. Other people are around now.
• I finally get to a park at the end of a peninsula where there are lots of people, a lighthouse, and the ocean beyond.  A steep set of steps goes down around the base of the lighthouse to the edge of the water.  I run down through here and then up the other side.
• At the top of the other side of the hill I find a place to rent small powered boats, so I get one.
• I drive the boat down canals that are at first empty, but soon get crowded with other boat traffic. Some boats are small like mine, some large.  It’s like a street in India with the mass of cars going every direction.
• I get to an opening where I stop and meet some friends.  Just past where we stopped the waterway opens up into a  large bay which I realize is Newport.
• But it’s getting late and we have to get back.
• I jump on someone else’s smaller boat that’s more like a motorcycle, and she begins riding fast back up the canal through the heavy boat traffic, weaving around other boats and narrowly missing head-on collisions.
• We stop at a large marina and water park where there are more people I know.
• We stay there for a while eating and drinking but I get separated from my group.
• When I can’t find them and I realize it’s almost time to leave, I sneak onto a large boat that docked there.
• Soon after I crouch down on a set of benches on top of the boat, a cover starts coming down over the top.  I am nearly crushed when I see a girl to my right who is operating the controls on this weird fiberglass cover that’s covering the whole top of the boat.  She is right next to me so I don’t understand how she will get out either.
• “I’m sorry, I snuck on and I’d like to get out now, but I’m stuck.” I say.
• “No, you are not,” she says.  “Turn around.”
• I turn and realize that by my feet there is an opening which I go through and she follows.
• I talk with her as the boat makes its way back out into the canal and up through other canals that I didn’t know about.
• It makes its way into a city and we pass bridges, buildings, fields with people playing games.
• Finally the boat stops again and I realize the girl I was talking with is gone.  I look around and see she is down on the bow of the ship which is flooding with water. The entire ship is settling deeper into the water and the bow is going under.
• I run to find someone and point out what’s happening.  I am afraid she’ll drown, or be swept off the ship since the water coming over the railing is so strong.
• I find another, older woman and point out what’s happening.
• “Just watch” she says.
• Two more girls join the girl at the bow.  The ship moves in front of three tubes, they look like the opening to a waterslide, but a strong current of water is entering them, filling them completely with rushing water.
• When the ship is finally in front of them.  The three girls walk up to the tubes, and dive in head first.
• I look around for where the exit of the tubes might be, but I cannot find it.
• I turn to the woman next to me, “Where do they exit?”
• “Back at the start.” is her reply.
• I don’t understand at first and then realize she means the water park where we were docked hours ago.  I think back on how far the ship traveled to get to this spot from there.  It’s miles!  “They will drown!” I say.
• “Perhaps.  They are ready, we must go to them if they are to live.”
• The boat turns and begins its way back down the canals.  We pass the same places on the way out as on the way in.  At one of the fields there are people playing with these balls that are illuminated from the inside from some sort of power source.  They kick them at people on the ship and they are kicked or swatted back like a vollyball.  I can’t tell if this is a friendly game or the people on the ship are being taunted.
• On the way the woman explains to me that while the girls who make the journey through the water tubes train for it, there is more.  She is their mother, and she must get to the exit tubes before sunset or the girls will be lost forever.
• I begin to notice that I do not recognize where we are, the ship is going a different way.
• “There are those who would like to see us fail, and they have blocked the way for the ship.” the woman says, “We are going to have to swim also.”
• The ship begins to flood itself again to bring the bow under water.  I am taken with the woman to a forward compartment.  I can hear the water outside surround the compartment as the ship sinks further.
• “How long am I going to have to hold my breath?” I ask.  “I’m not one of you.”
• The woman looks at me, smiles, but says nothing.
• I am waiting for the water to come rushing in, or to be spat out of the ship underwater like a torpedo, but it never happens. The sound of water fades and I realize the ship is surfacing.
• “You said we were going to swim!” I say to the woman.
• “The ship swims too.”
• We go back to the top of the ship and we are docked next to a set of stairs that lead up and around an old building. I realize that the ship must have descended under the water and gone through some underwater passages to get here because this is a completely different part of the city.   There are high metal fences around the buildings and the edge of the waterway where we are docked.
• I follow the mother and a few other people up the stairs.  I sense they are worried.  I look up at the sky and see that the clouds have turned a fire-red.  Sunset is almost here.
• We take a brisk pace up and around a series of steps, the sound of water running becomes louder.  We must be nearing the exit of the tubes where the girls will be.
• After another turn we come to a gate.  It is locked, and there is no way around.  The fences are too tall and too strong to get past.
• On the locked gate door is a sticker that I recognize to be from the local mayor, who is generally regarded to be evil.  he has locked this gate to make sure that we will not be able to get in, and that the girls will die.
• “We must find another way!” the woman says with some panic.
• We run back down the steps and take another path.  We exit onto a beach and find some bicycles.  Everyone in the group grabs a bike and begins riding off down the beach towards the tube exits.
• I am about to leave as well and then notice a pair of dive flippers.  Thinking that there might be more swimming I take them.

[this is where the dream ended, but I’m thinking something like:]

• We all ride down the beach.  We turn a corner and the tube exits are visible, but are surrounded by a large lake / pond.  We will have to swim the last leg, and get to the tube exits before sunset which is rapidly approaching.
• I will put on the dive flippers which makes me faster than everyone else, even though the other people in this group are all part of this “Swimmers” race.  Maybe they’re all older and have made “the swim” earlier in their lives but now they’re not as good.  In any case, having the dive flippers makes me faster and I get there first, just before the last bit of sun falls under the horizon.
• Maybe the woman will have realized this was the outcome, and earlier in the story gave me a “gift” which is really some sort of amulet that I need to use to open the tube exits and get the girls out.
• I use the amulet, the girls appear out of the water that is rushing out of the tube exits.
• The last of the sun falls below the horizon.

I was driving through a city and a huge storm rolled in.  There were tornadoes dropping down everywhere.  I pulled my car over to the side of the road, opened up my trunk where all the camera gear was, and grabbed a camera.

I ran up the street to try to get a shot of one of the largest tornadoes that was starting to engulf an entire skyscraper.  Just as I lined up the shot the entire building exploded movie-style, with one of those blue donut-shaped shockwave rings racing out of it and towards me – the building was vaporized into thousands of pieces flying through the air.

After snapping a couple shots of it approaching I ran into a parking garage, hid behind a concrete pillar, and covered my ears just as the shock wave hit.

I checked the image n the camera and was surprised to see that it wasn’t a picture of the exploding building at all, but rather one of a woman crouching in fear of the oncoming shockwave.  Confused I checked the camera in my hands only to realize that I had grabbed an old 10 year old backup camera that was slow to take photos and had really low resolution.  The camera hadn’t taken the photo until I was half-way turned towards the refuge of the parking garage.

However, after reviewing the images on the camera again I realized there was in fact an entire series of photos taken from just when I had started turning.  They all had a movie-film, black and white kind of look and I realized they were all really good photos in their own right – just not the one I had intended to take.

• Dylan is walking down a crowded road with his family, it is nighttime.
• They are on their way to the ferry terminal in a large European town
• They’re trying to get on the largest, and last, ferry along with everyone else around them
• People are panicked and confused, but still reasonable orderly
• The attack hasn’t happened yet, but they’ve heard on the news that this is the last place on the planet that the aliens haven’t come yet
• Dylan and his family are American, and Dylan’s father is an important government official.
• They are able to get into the ferry, and make their way to the windows inside the large room inside the main deck.
• They look out over the water and see other ferries, some of them sinking, capsized or something.
• Then the attack begins as swarms of alien ships come out of the sky leaving green trails behind them.
• The ships fire on the people on land, the ferries, everything.
• Dylan realizes that it is hopeless, this is the last place that the aliens attacked and it’s clear that there is no escape – everyone will die.
• There is an explosion and Dylan is knocked unconscious.
• Dylan awakes in a bed.  He looks around the room and realizes it is his  bedroom back at home in the United States.
• Slowly the events come back to him: seeing the news reports on TV about the first attacks, his father rounding up his family in the hotel, their crazed dash to the ferries, and the final attack.
• How did he end up in this bed?
• He gets up and goes downstairs to find lots of people in the house, it seems most of his extended family is here.
• They all give him a solemn look as he walks by.
• Finally he finds one of his cousins who runs up to him and gives him a large hug.
• “I’m so sorry man.  I can’t believe it.” the cousin says..
• Bewildered Dylan says nothing.
• “I mean, it’s amazing you made it, but that everyone else in the plane crash didn’t is just crazy…” the cousin realizes that he probably should not continue on such a sensitive subject and stops talking.
• Through a few more conversations Dylan finds out that everyone here seems to think that he and his family were in a plane crash, and that everyone on the plane but him died.  Everyone is here for a wake for his entire family, and nobody has any recollection of the alien invasion, or the major cities of the world being completely obliterated.
• Dylan returns to his room to be alone and try to process what is going on.  Maybe he’s crazy and the entire alien story is some sort of coping mechanism by his brain.
• He finds his camera that he brings with him everywhere and turns it on.  When he presses the play button a video begins to play.  It’s  a video of him and his family at a birthday party – in the European city where that final attack happened.
• Dylan begins cycling through the pictures and videos and realizes they are all of this trip that he was on.  There are even a few final snapshots of the ferries being loaded, the mass confusion, and one blurry shot of an alien ship firing on a building in the distance.
• It’s his only evidence that any of this happened.
• He needs to find and reveal the truth.

• In the old Country Market in the town where I grew up
• Buy a sandwich at the deli
• Go to pay
• Realize I don’t have my wallet
• Tell cashier I will be right back after checking truck
• I know my wallet is not in the truck because I realize I am wearing new pants, not the ones I normally do, so I must have changed into them and forgot to grab my wallet
• Decide to leave and drive to house to get wallet
• About to leave parking lot when I remember my cash hiding spot
• Check my “secret stash” spot in the ashtray and find cash in there.  20, 10, 5, and some 1s
• Go back to park again
• Have to drive around a lot looking for a spot
• Realize there are hoards of people following me around and some of the other cars and people as well
• They follow you kind of like a school of fish everywhere you go
• They are homeless people trying/waiting to ask you for money

Continue reading “Dream – Morning of 2018-05-17”

Finally had another dream worthy of writing down!

Cast

• Mother
• Big Brother
• Middle Brother
• Little Sister
• Guy on Horse

Part 1

• Family on the beach: Mother, oldest son, middle son, youngest daughter.  From oldest to youngest the children are something like 17, 14, 12.
• It’s the end of the day and the mother and youngest two are lounging in the sand at the boardwalk that goes back to the parking lot and exit. The day is over and other families are leaving with all their stuff.  They are waiting for the oldest son to meet them here before they can all leave together.
• The daughter gets up and leaves to go for a walk.
• The mother and middle son sit together for a while watching the people leave.  “I wish I was as pretty as them.” the mother says.  At first middle son thinks she was talking to him, but he realizes she is thinking out loud and daydreaming.
• She continues to watch the people passing by so middle son decides to leave and go look for his sister.
• As middle son is walking down the beach looking for his sister, everyone is still walking out the opposite direction and he scans each face as they go by.  Some are girls his age and he smiles at them, sometimes they smile back.  Soon the stream of people has thinned to the occasional straggler and he looks at the landscape around him more. “I wish I had a camera” he thinks as he looks at the sand dunes.  The sky is getting towards sunset, all the colors are washed out and the sky is a light lavender color.  Some sort of mist hangs in the air above the dunes which makes each dune top lighter the further away it gets. The dunes furthest away are indistinguishable from the sky. Everything looks like it’s been drawn with shades of blue, purple, and lavender pastels.
• He finally sees his sister standing at the rocks at the end of the sandy part of the beach.
• As he gets closer he can see she is either crying or was crying. She is wearing a blue bathing suit, and it stands out against her pale white skin and red hair which is still wet from swimming earlier. Her red hair is odd because the two brothers have black hair and their mother’s is blonde.
• When he gets there he tells her “Big brother is probably back with mother by now, so we should head back, plus it’s going to be dark soon.”
• She turns to him with watery eyes and says “I don’t have any friends.”
• He knows he should say something, or give her a hug in this moment, but he can’t think of anything to say and instead looks out over the water, avoiding her gaze.
• She continues, “Did I have any friends before?”
• He knows what she means, before they moved here, before their father died, back when they lived on the farm.  He also knows the answer, which is that she did not, but instead he lies and says he doesn’t remember. He senses that she doesn’t quite believe him so he continues with a truth to try to reinforce the white lie, “The farm was big, there weren’t a lot of people around” he says.
• She seems to sense this is all he is going to say and turns back towards the beach exit and their mother.
• They walk back together in slience.

Part 2

There was some sort of flashback / other story about the older brother and the younger brother hanging out in a pool hall.  Older brother was teaching younger how to play. Someone came up and asked if they wanted to play an actual game.  Older brother lets younger play the game.  Younger gets crushed. “Maybe next time.” older says to younger.

Part 3

The mother drives the school bus in town, and because this is a small town the last stop is their house where she parks the bus for the night.  They have a chicken coop and the mother sells eggs to make extra money.  Some other children who live nearby stay on the bus until it gets to their house so they can go into the coop to pick out and buy eggs for their families.

As the town children and two younger children are in the coop they hear a commotion in the front yard. They all run around to see some guy on horseback intimidating and harassing the mother.  This guy has been harassing their mother since they moved here. The oldest son comes out of the house and confronts the man.

• The guy turns his horse to face the oldest son and says something dumb and cliche like “This ain’t none of your concern boy.”
• The guy on the horse had a long rifle with him.  He had been holding it balanced with the stock resting on his foot, now he raises it up with one arm and goes to shoo away the oldest son.
• But the oldest son grabs the rifle away from the man and swings it at him like a baseball bat.
• Since the man is on a horse the swing is mostly ineffective, but does make light contact with the mans face.
• Emboldened by his first swing the oldest son now tries to jab at the man’s face, using the rifle like a sword now instead of a bat.
• However the man is ready for this attack and dodges the thrusting rifle, grabs the barrel, and rips the gun out of the oldest son’s hands.

…and then I woke up

Reminder Resources:

Colors of the bathing suit, red hair, and white skin:

The Bus:

Foggy beach

Fog layer mask

Dream #1:

• Boy is being dragged by the arm by his father (or some sort of authority figure)
• Chained to a heavy thing and thrown into a pond
• On the way down the boy manages to free himself, but he knows it will mean death to surface right there, so he swims away underwater
• He remembers a place he can hide
• Almost out of breath he finally makes it to a part of the pond that the kids of the town/city know about, a place where you can surface in an air bubble under an overhang
• He surfaces underneath the overhang

• 

  There are a few inches of air in this spot.  It is not quite close din and he can see out over the rest of the pond

• He sees the upside-down mottled reflection of another man on the surface of the water peering over the edge of the pond.
• He knows the man is looking for him
• He thinks for sure the man will see his reflection too, but then he realizes that it is so dark in this little mini-cave that the man cannot see him.  as long as he stays quiet he should be safe.
• The boy stays as quiet as he can
• Eventually the man leaves, satisfied that the boy is in fact dead, still tied to the thing at the bottom of the pond
• The boy is still scared though, and stays where he is
• It starts to get dark
• Bugs are crawling on his exposed shoulders from the earthen wall behind and above him (i.e. kind of like in Lord of the Rings when the Hobbits hide from the black riders)
• The boy is finally satisfied that it is safe to exit the pond, and he is cold and shivering anyway.
• He crawls out of the pond and finds a path that leads into the woods
• He follows this path and comes upon a giant opening.
• It is shaped like a colosseum.  A giant three-quarters bowl made of yellow stone.
• Everywhere are holes and arches in the walls.
• The boy realizes that each of these individual openings leads to a sewer drain, a street grate, or some type of drain from the city.
• “I wonder what it’s like in here when it’s raining” the boy thinks.
• He begins exploring, climbing up broken rocks and stuff to try to get to one of these openings
• First tens and then hundreds of other children appear from openings all around him.
• Tribal in looks and behavior, they start hooting and hollering.
• “Other children who were sacrificed, or just runaways?” the boy thinks.

After this the dream did the “dream thing” and went off the rails.  All the kids broke out into song and dance like a Disney movie.

Dream #2:

• Man is hiking through the woods
• Has this single unwavering purpose, not even sure himself, just ‘knows’ he needs to follow this path, to go this direction, to get somewhere.
• Ends up in a village
• They recognize him as “the prophecy”
• Stuff happens
• Years go by
• His sons leave down the same path he entered, everyone knows they will return in 60 or 70 years to start the process again.

Takes place in the 80s some time in a country town.

• Guy comes home from somewhere.  Jail / College / Army, something like that.
• He’s always been in kind of a rowdy crowd.  He calls up his old friends to see what they’re doing.  His kid brother wants to come with him so he says ok.
• They all meet down at some quarry overlooking a processing plant.  3 cars, 3 guys and the kid brother.
• The third guy has this weird thing he says a lot, it’s like his catch phrase.  “Here’s to you kid” followed by something that just happened.
• They split most of a 12 pack of beer while shooting the shit (even kid brother has one).
• From the overlook you can see the entirety of the plant and all the machines moving stone around.  It’s nearly automated so there’s not really anyone to catch them drinking beer up on this overlook where they shouldn’t be.
• They decide to leave and kid brother wants to ride with guy #3 – they live next door and kid brother wants to see if this guy #3’s kid brother is home (who is our kid brother’s friend and who he wants to brag to about hanging with the big guys drinking beer).  Ok, fine says big brother.
• They all race their way out of the quarry because it’s fun on the dirt roads, you can fish tail around corners and stuff.  They are dirt roads and giant clouds of dust form which looks wicked cool but also is an advantage if you’re in the lead – not so much if you’re one of the cars behind.  Right now it’s the main character in the lead, the second car, and then the third car (with the kid brother and other guy driving) fighting to get in front of #2.
• They go around a large corner, a small straightaway, and then are back up onto the main road.
• Main character turns left, second car turns right, and the third car can’t be seen in the rear view.  Oh well, they must have slowed down because they couldn’t see.  He’d see them back on their home street.  He leans into the gas and accelerates onto the highway.
• Main character gets home, takes a shower, and then is getting dressed.  He notices the other guy still hasn’t come home yet (he can see guy #3’s driveway from his bedroom window).
• Main character calls second guy,  “Hey have you seen #3?  He’s not home yet…maybe he broke down, his car is a piece of shit you know”
• They decide to go check.
• It’s getting towards sunset now and they are re-tracing their path into to quarry when they see a break in the bushes and tire tracks leading to it in the dirt road.
• They stop, get out, and walk through the bushes to emerge out on the top of a very steep hill.
• At the bottom of the hill they see the #3’s yellow car’s taillights, trunk, and some of the roof, but the rest of the car is buried under stone, and more is slowly covering it because it had slammed into into a pile that was being built up by one of those stone conveyors.
• They run down the hill to the car and get to the driver side first.  It is blocked from being opened, half because it is crumpled, but half because there is a large rock on the ground keeping it from opening all the way.  They move the stone and get the driver’s side open.
• Stone chips just like the ones that are covering the car come pouring out…the inside is filled with stone. They frantically scoop with their hands but can only find a pair of feet on the driver’s seat with the legs leading towards the passenger side where the kid would have been sitting.
• They run over to the passenger side and open that door.  This one also opens roughly but not as bad as the first one. More stone chips come pouring out and then they see the rest of guy #3’s body covering / laying on top of the kid who is still in his seat with his seat belt on.
• Guy #3’s fingernails have stone chips embedded everywhere under them.  He had been trying to dig his way through the stone with only his hands.  His hands are raw, like he’d been digging for a long  time.  At first probably just to try to get to the door handle and get the door open, but afterwards in a vain effort to keep the ever-deepening stone away from their faces (remember, they are underneath a conveyor which is constantly pouring out more and more stone chips).
• They see a cookie – one which kid brother had brought with him from home – and it was miraculously preserved.  It had a single bite taken out of it and was still in kid brother’s lap.
• Big brother looks at guy #3’s face and thinks to himself it looks like he’s saying: “Here’s to you kid – I tried.”

In the actual dream it was peat moss and not stone chips but I don’t think they move peat moss on conveyor belts so I changed that, and there wasn’t beer in the dream but that seemed like a good addition.  I also couldn’t remember exactly what the “catch phrase” was that guy #3 had (i.e. “Here’s to you kid”), but I think that might be right.